Treadmill

Hey guys,
Well I figured out something about myself. I CAN'T WATCH CONCERTS ANYMORE! I've been watching some on YouTube and I just feel pissed off at myself because I should be doing that. I should be playing in front of people and entertaining them, getting my music out there. Right now I feel as though I'm in a place I can't get out of like I'm suck on a treadmill or something. It's like the same thing everyday, Same school, same boring classes, same miserable teachers, same crazy friends (I love my friends lol) same band practises and getting nothing done with my band, and just cruising through life with no purpose. I want to do something with my life! Make a difference, Be apart of history but there are no chances to do it. I'm not the smartest, defiantly not the most athletic, I'm not the best at music, I'm not a history buff. I'm just an average girl and I know if I don't do something 10 years down the road I'm going to be stuck in a crappy job and doing nothing with my life! I don't want that. I just need one chance at my dream and I can't do that for myself because if I do people would just call be a bossy bitch or or something along those lines. I wonder if every teenager feels like this cause I feel so alone cause my mom brags to my grandmother and her friends about me doing good in school, and being in cadets, and playing in the school bands and stuff like that but I feel as though those don't count cause I see a lot of kids doing the samething...holy crap I'm ranting again like my other one anyways I hope to write more and update faster! check out my FanFic site and read!!!

Hayley Michelle Simpson
xoxoxoxoxoxox<3

P.s I put on one of the funniest things I have seen from David Choi

from his Christmas Song Marathon "White Christmas" ft. Chester See